future Rory Gilmore

i have recently decided that i need to start dressing better. i'm getting older and i want to feel older. when i dress better, i look older. when i wear hoodies and jeans i could easily be mistaken for a high schooler. i always feel this way when i'm at home, and i care about dressing better for the people i'm around or could potentially run into, but when i'm at school it's so busy and fast paced that i don't bother with taking the time to look better. i don't really care what anyone at school thinks, and in my down time i want to relax or have fun, not have wasted it because i just spent 30 minutes doing my hair and make-up. i love my hair when it's straight but it takes so damn long. and usually most people can dress better because they are in majors that require a computer or nothing liquid of any sort. photography chemicals, inks, isopar... it never ends for me. what's the point of looking like a grown-up if i'll just ruin it? and why try and look nice when i'll rip it all off three hours later and put on gym clothes? i can't wait until i'm out of school so i can dress how i want all the time.

food craving

i want a piece of cheesecake so bad right now.

i hate boots

but i want these so bad.

a little christmas list

deanna templeton's book

todd selby's bookalphabet magnutzgreen tea purse (love that they call it green tea)ivory scarf

i'm not usually an internet shopper. i know there are 5 different angles of the product, a giant zoom i can use to see every fiber in it and a 1,000 word description about it but how do you really know unless you go into the store? these are things i've actually seen but were sold out of in the store/ found cheaper online/ the store is 800 miles away and i now have to order it online. the books i haven't seen but deanna templeton is my favorite, ever, and todd selby takes some pretty awesome portraits.

i've also been really into scarves lately. i used to be very against the scarf for fashion purposes. it's an accessory to keep you warm, not to look cute when it's 80˚ outside. and i still hold my stand with this one, however, i have come to love them. i probably won't wear one when it's scalding hot outside but in cool enough weather, why not? i am happy with this decision.

on a last note, all of this would be great for christmas but all i really, truly want, is to keep the peace. i want my family to get along, shut up, love each other, and play some bored games with me.

i'm a terrible gift giver anyways

my mom is the hardest person to shop for. she doesn't really like candles or soaps or lotions or perfume or jewelry and how do you buy your mom clothes? i have no idea what she would like and what she doesn't. and she's not really a shoe/ purse woman, like she doesn't have a million pairs of them or anything. i don't know what to get her! i always usually just get her a calendar or last year she wanted a nightshirt from Victoria's Secret but I NEED HELP! what do i get her? does anyone, anywhere, have ANY suggestions for me?

finally

i finally got a haircut.

britt & hannah

ross halfin has some seriously awesome portraits. these are what i want to do.

music suggestions

my homework cannot be done at my house. i always need to be at a school building, and not sitting down- i am constantly moving. if you have ANY suggestion for music i might like i would really appreciate it. i am so sick of everything i have because i listen to it for like, 10 hours a day. i've been really into anything guitar heavy, good power jam session kind of stuff like Smashing Pumpkins and Lostprophets, or dancier stuff like Electric Six. but also really laid back stuff like Amos Lee (my favorite) and The Weepies. if you can help get me through finals and still have a full head of hair i will buy you a taco. and don't think i'm joking.

you should know:

nana

state plates

i think this is excellent.

feels so good

beth retro put this together and it makes me happy.
she did this as well. love it.

those things you can predict

i think it's so weird that you can look at a calendar and know what you will be doing that day. or in preparation for that day. like i can look at november 18th, 19th and 20th and say "oh, i will be taking finals and packing up my car to go home", and i can say all of that, just like that. a simple, little sentence. but in comparison it will in no way be that simple. i will shoot so many photos, spend countless hours in the dark room, spend so many friday nights cranking that press. all for... what? it's so strange i can look at a calendar and imagine things that haven't happened yet. for instance, i know that i will drive home that november 20th, not get home until 10 o'clock at night, and the very next day i will be at my dad's, with my black peacoat and my boots and the cold outside, the slush on the ground. i know that we will celebrate my dad's 52nd birthday and it will be warm and full of love and laughter and food. it hasn't happened but i can imagine it and know it. and i know i always claim i hate the cold, and this is true. but when you are in a city that is warm 9 months of the year, when i am home and it's cold i barely notice it because it's during the warmest time of the year. my dad's house permanently smells like cinnamon and apples from thanksgiving to new years and probably before and after that but how i would i know? there is always just so much love and family and candles being lit that the weather outside doesn't matter, just the people inside do.

when i was a little kid, i always thought that there was a duplicate united states, and that every time you touched your finger to a map, a giant finger was coming over the people in that land of the duplicate united states, like they would be outside playing frisbee and all of a sudden, in slow motion, it would get very dark and a giant finger would appear in the sky and everyone would run for cover in the same places that you would a tornado. this seems insignificant but it is much like the looking ahead on the calendar.

to me, anyways.

burrrr

it's 58° in savannah and i love Love LOVE it! i couldn't be happier if there were actually fall leaves on the ground.
this reminds me of a christmas story, 100%.

the comfort zone

this kid greg in my litho class looks like the most comfortable human being on the face of the earth. he's thin but muscular and always wearing a plain colored, somewhat tight fitting shirt but it's still loose and isn't too baggy. his jeans fit him perfectly and his belt looks like a decoration. he wears loafers with cotton on the inside to keep your feet snuggly and his stylish, black glasses everyday. he's clean, simple and comfortable. i think i am only on my diet so i can be as comfortable as him.

pooooool

i have no idea whose image this is. i found it on the school computer when getting my own images from it. i really like it, though. it's gross and disgusting but i guess the whole "green is serene" thing is working for it. it's so dilapidated, how pools often are this time of year.ps- i can't get the color the same. the green of the side of the pool is so neon and vibrant that's it's almost glowing.

this is amazing

i have such a respect for pete seeger.

4x5

i've been in large format for 3½ weeks now and these are my favorite images so far. i know the bottom is dark but it's because i found out i was loading my film backwards! at least i figured it out now and not 7 weeks in. i still need to try and fix the scratches and there are marks from the squeezy clip when it was in the dryer but... this is what i have for now! i just LOVE how 4x5 allows you to see every texture.

smell me

to be honest, i hate drawing. but the smell of Anderson hall.... man, do i miss it. it was wood and charcoal and colored pencil and graphite and all of those pesky materials i don't like using but uh, that was a good smell. i have to say it was almost inspirational. i remember one day in october two years ago in my drawing one class, it was a little chilly and rainy and beth baronian played "black bird" by the beatles and i know i have heard that song so many times before but now whenever i hear it i will always think of that day, of beth, and of that smell.

my "autumn" scented febreeze does not cut it

today was officially the first day of fall, not that i'll know it. i'm in the land of two seasons: very hot and mildly cold. only one more year of this and i am SO moving somewhere i can rake leaves, wear light jackets, spend all saturday in a pumpkin patch and picking apples for fresh apple pie. i miss the smell of autumn, bad.


jessi bautista - i think she's amazing and am honored to have met her and own a copy of the above print. i want more.

80's dinosaurs

fecal face

blech

i can't get my mix of girly and grunge just right. ever. i end up looking like some disgruntled chick who hasn't shaven her legs in a week.

it is.

see, the problem is

that i don't have any fun pictures of myself. none of my friends really ever feel the need to grab a camera when we're together because they know i will have one. consequently, they have a ton of pictures of themselves, while i've got the shaft. i beg you, when we're together, please pick up a damn camera!

celebrity mug shots

these just crack me up. love them.

sidewalk surfers = love

i have to say that hands down, sanuks are my FAVORITE footwear... ever. i'll be livin' in them til the day i die.

do ittttttt

i will do better

dear body:

i promise that starting on september 14, things will change. we will go running, swimming, and do yoga more often. i will give you your proper 8 hours and hopefully even some naps. we will be able to keep our own food in the house, so lots of salad with chicken, strawberry oatmeal and even all that fruit you've been craving. i know we've been doing pretty well with water and i promise we will keep that up. soda will be for going out with the girls, and beer will be reserved for sunday football. we will party and have a good time, but we will always run the day after, sweat everything out and drink gatorade to bring back all the electrolytes you lost. your nails will be kept short and unless it's it's curly hair day, you will have a brushed head of hair every day. your lip might be getting a new hole through it, but i promise to keep it clean and not let it get infected. we will shower every day, no matter how tired, overworked, or busy you may be.

but christmas break, well that's a different story.

give in

i just signed up for a twitter. i'm still trying to figure it out- like do's and don'ts, and backgrounds and stuff. i was so against it for a while but my friend simon is so awesome that he was the only person who could convince me to get one. i wonder what else he could talk me in to? :]

come back, old friend

i can't express how much i miss my long hair.

blue&&yellow

i may not dress like this, but this is how i feel most of the time :]

update

i want to drink my tea.
i need to take a shower.
should i wear my hair curly or straight?
i should test that nail polish.
if i don't use it i can take it back.
i should put all these clothes away.
i need to make some art.
i need to read a book.
i want to get a plaid shirt.
and those cute boots.
i hate boots.
should i sign up for a fourth class?
when will i get that email?
i will never get that text.
i miss wearing open toed shoes.
i love my sanuks.
i've been really into perfume lately.
i need to keep up with the news.

i wanna be there

these photos by Ed Fladung are so summery/beachy/sandy i can smell the saltwater just looking at them. i love the color and need to be at the beach pronto!

hot head

i took these in the beginning of summer. i'm finally doing something with them. enjoy, please!

on another note, i've been feeling incredibly girly lately. what's up with that?

my hands smell like autumn

every time i use this soap

it makes me want to watch this movieand it makes me wish i wasn't missing autumn two more years in a row. it's my favorite season and the only one i don't get at school. fall leaves in savannah, pleaseeeeee.
what a gyp.

umm, i love this.

midnight intenet shopping

i found this dress from steven allen and i want it soo bad. the earrings, too.

squeaky clean

i've been on this cleaning spree lately, and i've been cleaning everything. i started with my room, which was cluttered to the max- moving back and forth to school and not going through it since high school made for some unnecessary mess. in the middle of that i went to both hall closets, then to the pantry, now my car and i need to finish the pantry. i should do the rest of the downstairs and maybe the garage again but if anyone thinks i'm going near the basement they can kiss my caboose.

fall out

i am totally feeling like this today. it's cold and rainy and i wish there were orange leaves covering the ground. i'm always so sad that i miss autumn every year. by the time i get back from school for thanksgiving the leaves are brown and the trees are bare. i'm going to keep this feeling today; things that always make me feel like fall are cleaning my room, !gby goes down, my favorite gilmore girls episode and brown cords.

legalized

i have been making some terrible decisions lately, and i can only imagine they will be getting worse. but summer, good friends, concerts and nerf guns will probably make this the best summer ever.

i am not properly nourished

if you want to eat in this household, you better make it yourself because no one else will.

coolest sweater i've ever worn

i'm putting my brain on hold until fall, thanks

um, excuse me, but aren't finals over? what is with this craziness? i'm interning at a gallery and have a lot to do with that. i have people penciled in that i haven't seen in quite a while, i have interviews, i want to get down to my dad's, i have to make business cards, a website, pick out a piece to put in a gallery show and have that framed and ready a good amount of time before the 26th, make a flyer to be a local pet sitter (tell your friends), and actually try and relax, eat and sleep. i made the Dean's list, don't i get some down time?
i'm getting a smoothie.

To Do:

i need to
-listen to music and shower
-work on sponge project
-pack up a car full to take to the storage unit
-have the 77 minute surprise with katie
-figure out a plan to make jasper my doggie

Keep On

i can't give up now. i was so motivated all the way until now- i don't know how to get that back for a week and a half but i need it, i need it. alright, thinking about music, music that inspired me. photos that got my heart racing, movies that made me want to be those characters. i need it now and probably all summer. inspiration- where the hell does it come from? everywhere, girl.. just keep lookin'
Recent Inspirations:
- dustin humphrey
- smashing pumpkins- gish, siamese dream; note: gotta hear mellon collie
- deanna templeton
- RVCA
- dazed and confused
- red hot chili peppers- californication
- almost famous

photos from dustin humphrey at reel sessions

tonight's playlist

and in no particular order:

1. "lets begin"- bad arnold
2. "1 2 3 4"- plain white t's
3. "too bad about your girl"- the donnas
4. "99 bottles"- SLR whitestar
5. "4ever"- the veronicas
6. "tristessa"- smashing pumpkins
7. "your love" wyclef jean
8. "hold me now" wayne wonder
9. "every breath you take" ub40

more greatness

some more inspiration.

greatness

This is probably the single greatest photo ever. It's counting in for some real inspiration right now. The final two are also pretty awesome and factoring in, but not as much as the first.


RVCA Skate