satisfaction guaranteed

if this could be me someday.. i would be totally satisfied.

on the rise

things have changed since i published my "i vow" blog. it's weird: in five weeks, or should i say more like three, my life is changing. a lot of those things don't concern me anymore. my life has done, not a 180∘but maybe... maybe more like a 62∘. things that i was thinking about just a few short weeks ago no longer have a place in mind, it's too filled up with other more exciting things. i would like to think that these things will never change, but i thought that a few weeks ago. i know they will change and i am content where i am right now, but where i could be in two or three weeks from now is mind boggling. i am excited, i am just waiting for things to fall in their place.

lens craving

come on 'rents! let's get your act together so i can order my dang lens already and get out to the wavessss

loversland

this is all i want to do. i can't get it off my mind. i'm becoming completely obsessed and i haven't even gotten out there yet. imagine how bad it will be when i do and i have to come back.surfing is for lovers.

i should leave here

about two hours ago i realized that a series of choices can highly affect you, in good ways or bad. mine, surprisingly, is good. i am now crazy excited and ready to see where this takes me. fingers crossed on a lot of things but if i stay mellow i'm hoping things keep turning out my way.

i'm making a box of threats and sending it to you

i am having the worst day ever and you aren't here to make it any better. maybe it was put into the wrong box. i bet that's it. that stupid receptionist was so rapped up in her own personal phone call that her business side was having trouble concentrating. i bet you she tossed mine into the wrong box and that's why i didn't get a call. i would like to blame it on anything besides i'm not good enough.

i'm making a box of threats and sending it you.

nonchalant

i'm not as swift and suave as you. i get it. i guess maybe you don't think of it as a form of flattery, just a form of annoyance. everything, everyone around me. right now: annoying. people are stupid. like it's something they don't want to and are so unadventerous and don't want to step outside that little box they call home. well here's an update for you: by being as precautious as you are, it's no wonder you have never had a relationship outside of your mother and your friends. baby steps and stop, look and listen will not get you anywhere in life. and you: i don't even know where to begin. you annoy the crap out of me with some of the things you do. there's not even a category or words for what you do. and finally... you. i love you to death but sometimes you drive me crazy because you don't understand that sometimes i need help and i'm not a good as you. maybe you aren't as good as i think but who am i to say. but no one cares! no one! no one is sorry and no one cares about anyone else even when they claim to. they don't. seriously- think about it.
whatever. i don't want to talk tonight.