nonchalant

i'm not as swift and suave as you. i get it. i guess maybe you don't think of it as a form of flattery, just a form of annoyance. everything, everyone around me. right now: annoying. people are stupid. like it's something they don't want to and are so unadventerous and don't want to step outside that little box they call home. well here's an update for you: by being as precautious as you are, it's no wonder you have never had a relationship outside of your mother and your friends. baby steps and stop, look and listen will not get you anywhere in life. and you: i don't even know where to begin. you annoy the crap out of me with some of the things you do. there's not even a category or words for what you do. and finally... you. i love you to death but sometimes you drive me crazy because you don't understand that sometimes i need help and i'm not a good as you. maybe you aren't as good as i think but who am i to say. but no one cares! no one! no one is sorry and no one cares about anyone else even when they claim to. they don't. seriously- think about it.
whatever. i don't want to talk tonight.